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| So I am an extremely friendly person so that I can get through life and avoid annoying people asking why I am anti social or whatever people do when they have 2 much free time in their lives. l Recently it has come to my attention that an individual has been around who I am not very fond of and every time I see him I want to do some very not nice things. In general if there is someone I am not fond of I can always find some aspect of their personality that allows me to treat them nicely despite that nagging feeling that they are not good people. But this person is a rare exception to that rule that I keep, this does not happen very often in my life but currently it is the thing that is driving me nuts.
I have all this work that just fell into my lap because I was trying to do the right thing but everywhere I go this person seems to be in places where he should most definitely not be. AHHHHHHH!! I just needed to vent because in general I cant stand when people whine especially when that person is me...
So far I have yet to actually start my summer I have been at school for about 2 months(with a 1 week break b/w spring semester and fall semester) now and haven't minded it but still I most definitely need to get away so my sanity does not suffer from being in such close proximity of that individual.
I know when I get home the only things that I will have to entertain me will be the wireless internet and the new fios we have at my home. So I mean thats not horrible but I also dread having to start to run outside. I clocked 4 miles yesterday in 51mins but obvs I have to improve that by alot, I mean its still huge since I haven't gone walking, let alone running, 4 miles intentionally for about maybe 8 years so it was kinda big for me. I just hope to keep improving as my summer starts and continue the improvements as I come back to school for my senior year.
*sighs* So close to new changes.....Feels good 
La Colombiana
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| Yesterday I went out to get snack about 11 and walking the streets behind the townhouses I got rlly sad because I’ve never been on campus and not had at least one of my best friends or a close friend nearby. I was talking with Carlos and I said I miss the girls a lot. Thinking about that got me thinking about next year. Unless I fail my entire life next year I believe that I will be graduating on time and more than likely moving from LI to MA. I’ve already started looking at places with my mom. My mom said she would probably want to move to a smaller place since we have some troubles with the house that we live in now. (Most of these problems I associate with neighbors and town laws that are ridiculous). I know that these reasons are not the real reasons my mom wants to move but she likes to say those are some of the reasons. So far the places that I have looked at are a lot nicer than I was originally planning for so that is definitely a good start. These past few days have been finically hectic and revolutionary. I have been talking to my mom at least once a day and it actual is not as bad as in my imagination I had expected. I talk to her about everything, school, work, politics, and places to live, and even Carlos. I never really imaged that the day would come that these things would come so easily. I am dare I say it content for the moment. I have some stresses but overall it seems like things might be starting to go my way. I may actually be getting a handle on my once chaotic life that was spiraling to an unpleasant place. I still have some very important choices to make but over all I think I am more clear-headed than I have been in a very very long time. By the end of next week I hope to be laying peacefully in the arms of the man who I love. Smiling to myself and thinking I am the luckiest girl in the world to have found someone of a like mind who loves me as much as I love him. I’m off to my chemistry of CSI class so that I can go over the test and discover if I will be able to succeed in this class and get a A or B J either which will significantly help my GPA. I got an A- in my sleep and dreams class which was pretty epic for an entire semester class squished into only 8days. Maybe things are looking up…still so much to do to get my life together but at least I’m not running directly towards a train lol. *sighs* Stressed but at peace with my internal storm. La Colombiana <3 | | |
| So after about 2 years of trying to handle a situation on my own...it came full circle this morning at about 12....
I told my mom everything and about how much debt I am in.. yes she freaked out but I feel so much better...well not that much better because everything I will be working for this summer will be going to clear my accounts and I am prob gonna have to get a job for when I go back in July just because my mom does not feel that not having a life is the appropriate way to handle basically being broke which I prob will be....I dunno It feels good but at the same time. I feel like an idiot for letting anything like this transpire...*sighs*
My time to pay has come and it wont be happy but once its over I will never look back other than to not have a repeat...
La Colombiana
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| So currently I am on my third day of my Sleep and Dreams class and it has been going pretty well so far. I have a ton of work due tomorrow but I know that I can get it all done so it should be alright.
These past few days I have been thinking about my future in college and Ive discover today(with major help) that I will be able to graduate on time...I am happy but not all together.. I have a lot of things that have been put on my plate as of recently and I am not sure how I feel about them or how others will feel about them...
I have plenty of time to use my head and think about the things I want in life and the things I feel are important enough to accomplish well..
I dunno just thought of the future which is uncertain.....Oh well I have a lot of work so I guess Ill live the wondering for the night <3
La Colombiana
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| Back in 47 till friday...Everything I see in this damn house reminds me of the people Id rather be with right now....damn u RPS!!
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